La Femme Desperado

daydreamzzz

2010-01-04T20:39:00.015+08:00

been slacking at home lately, waiting for school to start next week.. so what do i do to while time away? instead of ironing my clothes.. i was daydreaming about this Korean guy whom i remember seeing in this korean comedy called 'please come back, soon ae'. now he is also in the 7pm channel u show and OMG he is SO SUAVE. how come the men i saw on the streets of Korea the other time all CMI huh.. wah it's amazing what wonders make-up and plastic surgery can do to celebs.. that is why we ladies should hire a make-up artist for our wedding..

i guess it is also partly because of the character he is playing.. warm and kind.. capable and handsome.. filial and loving.. sweet guy with a sweet smile.. omg.. my heart is not melting.. IT IS MELTED! but my experiences taught me that sweet and gentle guys only exist in dramas. or rather, they are sweet at the beginning only..

man i wish such a guy really exist.. i was dreaming how it would freaking be like if this man asks me to marry him.. and we will spend the next 1 year preparing for our wedding in Jeju Island.. then we will wear the same wedding rings.. i even had a vision of his mother wearing the korean traditional hanbok and all of them from his side are wearing white gloves present at my Jeju wedding..receiving blessings from our friends and relatives.. aw..

but i hope he speaks English though.. i can't speak Korean.. and i hope i wont have to wear hanbok for 3 months.. (for traditional families their new daughters-in-law got to wear that for 1st 3 months) i cant wear that to change bedsheets and iron clothes.. i can die in that case..

ok now i shall think of what door gifts i want to get.. WA HAHA.. if i marry a miser in future.. i can forget about getting all these..

New Yr Resolutions

2010-01-01T13:48:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

2010 New Year Resolutions:

1) work on my GPA (upscale please..)
2) Land a job in a offshore/foreign/wholesale bank after Grad
3) exercise more to burn the holiday calories
4) Save up for an overseas trip at the end of the year
5) Build on my social network (call me for gatherings or parties thx.)
6) hope some disgusting sick bastards will get their deserts this year and we won't have to see them ever again *pukes*

After watching an episode on Oprah about ladies still being single.. an expert said that's because our expectations are too high. to see that for ourselves we should write a list of things (honestly) we expect in a guy, so i will try that and tell me if im unrealistic:

1. can earn and is capable (at work and at home, knowing how-to-home fix will be good. cooking skills is a huge bonus!)
2. able to get along with his family and friends
3. get along with my family and friends
4. look good (at least in my eyes) and has a decent sense of dressing (this is a form of respect for the lady u are going out with. she needs to feel that u are some1 she can bring home and show u to her friends)
*CANNOT BE FAT AND UGLY (im sorry. guys who don't make an effort to look or smell good is wasting our time)
5. able to give me a sense of security (i must feel that im no.1 on his list. or at least no.2. if the girl doesnt even have a ranking, the r/s is bound to fail)
6. GENEROUS AND ROMANTIC! (I HATE MEN WHO ARE MISERS.)
7. drive big car (not van. ok i feel guilty for writing this but if the guy is romantic he can take u out on a spin in the night!)
8. SURPRISE ME OFTEN (in a delightful way)

some habits and characteristics of disgusting sick men some of my friends and i have seen:

>MISERS (1 guy actually told the girl he had to spent a lot of his ez-link card $$ just to travel down and meet her. UNBELIEVABLE)
>LIARS (always lying that they are not free)
>UN-GENTLEMEN AND INCONSIDERATE (blew the girl off after midnight to go clubbing)
>BULLIES (treating the girl with utter disrespect by passing rude remarks and mocking them)
> BRAGGART (some men use their mouths to say that they are so smart and generous in front of the girls but deep down they are so not what they claim themselves out to be. in fact, turns out to be the exact opposite)
>DIG OUT 'OLD SCORES' IN QUARRELS
>REFUSE TO ADMIT WRONG (came up with 18 pg long of excuses to back themselves up)
>FORGOT GF'S BDAY AND PRETEND TO FORGET ABT THE PRESENT (1 guy pushed the blame by telling the girl "who ask ur bday to be on new yr")
>STRINGING THE GIRL ALONG TO GET FRESH WITH HER (all men only have 1 thing in their head. while the good guys have self control.. some men, what we call the bastards, rush the girl into these things)
>PUT UP A SHOW TO COVER UP FOR WHAT THEY WANT TO HIDE FROM THE GIRLS

all these are things that we dont see in guys when we know them as friends.. only surface after you 2 get together. easily spot 8 out of the 10 points mentioned above in 1 man and men with most of these points norm fall in the same category. all mothers, please raise your son well and teach them to treat ladies like ladies.

happy new yr!

2009-12-31T13:05:00.002+08:00

haiz.. just screwed up a numerical test real bad. ARGH!! if this wasnt bad enough.. i saw 'the ugly disgusting person whom i hope will burn in hell' yesterday. more than disgusting than ever. disgusts me to the bone. filled me with utter disgust. why do some ppl not feel that they are disgusting? i feel like spilling coffee onto that person's car (like how some mysterious person did to my dad's car) and make it look like an accident.. but i dont know how to. im not sure if there is a cam in the car. any1 with better idea pls share with me..?

time flies.. another yr has passed. i thought i just celebrated my 21st and very soon.. im another year older again. i looked into the mirror yesterday and yes i saw dark rings and train tracks under my eyes.. :( all the eye masks and eye cream is not enough to completely remove them. *boo hoo*

yay tmr's is finally yihui's turn to join the 'forever 21' club. haha.. i wish i could drive there.. but my dad wouldnt let me take his car. &^%$#@!

2009-01-10T21:02:00.003+08:00

i don't think i can get over this as much as i want to... he was the guy I most wanted. We “cliqued” nearly perfectly. I think I’ll always miss him. I think I’ll always wonder how he is doing. I truly thought he was “THE ONE.” he is the sweetest guy i've known and he makes me doubt that I’ll ever find another that made me feel the way he has. he treated me so nice and hit me with the hurtful truth at the end...

I’ve had plenty of crushes, but this time…. it's not a crush. the hurt won’t stop, no matter how “busy” I stay, or how much I try to think of other things. Time might heal a little bit in my case, but there is no simple solution to make me feel any better or to forget.

i feel like a stupid ass. i reli reli like him and i feel that he likes me too. The two of us are always flirting back and forth. i wanted to make something more from this friendship and i thought he did also. Then THIS happens.. why must this happen? why why why.. why did he then mislead me.. am i reading into it too much? if i go with my gut feeling i don't think i am know... or maybe i was just plain naive.

i wish i have a car of my own.. so i can blast loud music and speed on the highway in this quiet lonely night...

mr perfm :)

2008-10-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

mr perfm makes my day! mr perfm has a smile that warms the inside out! mr perfm is nice and sweet. and funny. and has patched my rough day. :)

but am afraid of the truth. cannot deal with another truth like that. severe disappointment. complete loss of motivation. extreme embarrassment.

besides, such a thing is said to be forbidden... now i understand why.

dedicated to you, gong gong.

2008-09-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

guilty>distraught>sad

i wished i had talked more to him last week. i hardly spoke to him, not knowing it was my last visit, and bid him goodbye telling him i'll be back to see him again...

it was my 1st time seeing a funeral presided by SSA(spore soka association). simple and orderly. and the volunteers were really helpful. they were not related to us at all but came to lead the prayers and stayed till late in the night. many gratitute to them.

i jus cant keep the tears to myself... i reli wished i had spoken more to him last week... and it's hard to know that i wont get to see him anymore, not even in the next CNY. the hardest part was walking around him for the last time... it was reli......oh man...even my bro cried...

but like what my relatives said... he left in peace. he did not suffer, had a pretty contented life and got to see his grandchildren. he had his lunch and shower today... then left...

will be present at the wake till wed.

for the last time...goodbye gong gong... :'(

2008-09-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

argh.. the time has come. AGAIN.

now my worry isnt being unable to finish what i have to finish. it's upon finishing and not knowing what to do.

bless me. seriously.

long time no 'write'

2008-08-31T18:38:00.002+08:00

yihui just reminded me that i haven't updated my blog in ages... LOL. in fact, i nearly forgot that i have a blog. thank god it's still functioning.

very into badminton nowadays! still have a lot to work on my strokes though... and yihui is a great sparring partner! i had such a fun time with her!!! hahaha... she is still so cute! after lunch i actually saw simin's dad outside clementi ntuc. LOL. what a coincidence!

thx yihui!! we should meet again for another game!! it was really fun!! although im aching all over now. hahaha....

i really need to catch up with my work. so caught up with the assignments that i failed to revise. just realised that i had been neglecting my work which has been piled up and i better start clearing them now.

ok finally after many years my parking has improved. i need a couple more practices to conquer it! thx a lot Jonathan(my parking tutor)! my next venue should be my school. and then..... i shall venture into town. LOL.

time to get back into the damn assignments again. one after another. :S

2008-06-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

haiz... kendrick lee is not playing at this yr's aviva opens. :( i missed my chance to watch him play 'live'. :(

P.S: still hate his gf.

2008-06-09T21:40:00.004+08:00

im very very stress now. esp when my piano exam is nearing. the no. of lessons i'm left with seems to decrease faster than i thought. time flies amazingly fast. to some other people it may just be another exam, no big deal failing. it's not like i need it to earn my rice bowl. but it's sth i paid A LOT for and spent A LOT of time on. and only people who have gone through this will understand what i'm saying.

i can sweat from head to toe after playing(not exaggerating) and still make the same mistakes at the same area. it just kills me. i want it so bad and it will totally sux if i have to do it another time. i dun have that time, i dun wana pay 350 again and sch fees every month to prep for it again. and i dun wana play all my pieces that i played for a failed exam again. it jus sux ok. and goin back to sch again will just tell the other teachers and the recep i know that i din make it.

I WANT TO PASS OK. I AM GOIN TO PLAY WELL. I AM GOING TO SING WELL. AND I AM GOIN TO DRESS WELL. and i am going to TURN MY PAGES WELL. all these are what i didnt do for my prev grade and i want no mistake this time round.

SOMEBODY in my house got chicken pox. and im damn piss. i have aviva this wk and i was vaccinated. im avoiding this person at all costs. if i ever get infected i'll not speak to her till the end of the year. FOREVER SO STUBBORN. SHE JUST WLDNT LISTEN. NEVER EVER LISTEN. WHAT R HER EARS FOR SERIOUSLY??! she could have avoided all of these if she was vaccinated. and if she still got it upon vaccination i would be feeling sorry for her. doesnt she love her mum's place? why cant she move over for a couple of days??! i mean she bought a $400 fridge for them, she didnt even buy any furniture for this house. SHE JUST MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL.

argh!

2008-06-01T19:59:00.002+08:00

argh!! getting my results back!! im SCARED.

left with 1 more month of break... and my school starts again... by then i wont have as much time to practise my piano anymore... SCARED. :S

i have 'audience phobia'... "my days are numbered".... SCARED.

anybody selling time?

2008-05-14T19:23:00.002+08:00

haiz... i wish i can have more than 24 hrs per day. there are so many things that i want to do yet so little time. although its my holidays now, i still find no time for MORE things. cos i practise hours of piano, i cant look for a FT job. when i go out, i have to give up 1 precious day for practising. when i watch tv, i can't read. when i read, i can't exercise. *sounds like opportunity cost

so many ads for diff types of jobs. looks challenging and i feel like trying it out. like there's one at the hotel recep and another at a skin pdt counter. hope better opportunities arrive in future!

just signed up facebk and is still a rookie. :s

thinking abt it....

2008-04-20T19:01:00.005+08:00

i think im quite bitchy sometimes...but i dont im think scheming so far... and i don't want to scheme against others, neither do i even wana learn how to scheme at work future... because this is just not me.... then i thought. i dont wana change into that. wad if im changing or am i already changed...?

i think i am still the person my friends whom knew from the start.. but as i was thinking about it, i realised that amongst the people that i know, SOME no longer are people i knew at the start... and i dont think they realised that they have changed (not for the better all right...). we dont fall out, we are still friends and i still wana be their friends because i want to accept my friends for who they are. because of this...some of them simply drift further and further away in the crowd.... i cant find or spot them... only then i realise that i can no longer recognise them.

when we place ourselves in the core of the world, we can and will only see ourselves. but if we step back and see the world from the side, we will see things that we thought we couldn't see and do things we thought we can never do. very cliche... but how many us manage to do that?

2008-04-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

anxiously waiting....

special thanks to a great friend for all her text messages and replies. i cant thank you enough for your endless support and encouragement during and b4 my exam period. it really really meant a lot to me and i cant tell you how much i appreciate all these. thank you so much joyce! =)

yay!! can't wait to meet yh and sm for a game next sat!!! so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i wana go to lance's house and play his exam model piano too!

nightmare over soon

2008-04-14T14:03:00.002+08:00

yes. 1 more to go and my nightmares will be over soon. looking forward to a an uninterrupted 8h sleep.

shut up old b*tch

2008-03-30T17:32:00.002+08:00

it's been a long long time since i've updated. nearly forgot my password.

definitely gonna drop my whitley student. not because i dislike tutoring him but i simply hate his guardian. totally treat me with no respect. forever so impolite. I WANA SKIN AND MINCE HER ALIVE. if u pay me $2000 u can bully me for all you want. pay people miserable amount of money yet u want me to be at your call? dont treat me like some sucker ok... freaking witch i hope her house is infested with millions of rats, floods when raining and catches on fire when cooking. but after i quit of course...

people with common sense don't throw things that don't belong to you without asking. just showed that she really is brainless. i never even open my mouth and say anything when she threw the stuff i wrote for my student yet she came to 'bite' me first. never apologise...fine by me(expecting her to apologise is like expecting money to drop from the sky) still fault me for writing on the cards. what's wrong?? i dont see anything wrong at all. and her excuse is just so dumb. she said what 'o he's too young don't write on cards he cannot keep properly'. wa...BIG TIME JOKE. HE DIDNT LOSE OR THROW THE CARDS OK. YOU DID. HELLO? COME UP WITH EXCUSE ALSO NV USE BRAIN.
what's funnier is that she made him take public buses from whitley all the way to queenstown ALONE? if he is SO YOUNG, den why would you ask him to take bus all by himself early in the morning?

DON'T COME SHITTING ME OK OLD HAG. o i forgot.. ppl whose brains like hers have shit stuffed inside the whole brain. no wonder she's full of shit. wanted to quit immediately since ive collected my payment. but his SA is coming and it would be pretty unfair if i leave now cos it aint his fault...

this old b*tch really is testing my tolerance. i hope i didn't go through this for nothing... but whatever it is, im gonna fire her.

emo

2008-01-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

feeling very emo. very upset. very angry. VERY. VERY EMO.

da worse day

2008-01-17T00:38:00.001+08:00

argh. DA WORSE DAY.

1. met some1 i nv ever wana meet in my whole life. hope he dies soon.
2. feel threatened by some1 who seem to know me like im his long time friend but i dont know this person AT ALL. dont even know he's the friend of which of my friend who gave my no. to him. WHAT THE F?! and i have a feeling that he's untruthful. in short, not a gd guy. and definitely not a gd looking guy.
3. the guy ive been obssessed with(and under my observation since last sem) has a gf. when my friend told me, my heart sank to the floor... REJECTED.. ONCE AGAIN. BY SOMEONE BORN IN THE YEAR OF RAT AGAIN!

tink my chinese characteristics clash with the rats this year...somebody mend my broken heart...

SOS: somebody save me for commercial law. seriously need help. anyone. anybody.

distraught!

2008-01-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

met my new grp. chee hui is a girl. guess what. havent started grp work and i offended people. this girl told me her name is raine. so i though since all the girls' names are not chee hui so chee hui must be a guy then...so i said to raine " so chee hui is a guy?" and she replied laughing, " no. im chee hui." OMG! i cannot be more embarrassed!!! i was so guilty!!! although it was quite funny and there were no hard feelings... but still!!! omg. why cant i just ask an open ended question??? or sit there with my mouth shut. ARGH!

the very handsome guy i spotted since last year... has been targetted by many! my friend told me many people said that he's very handsome... then i just pretended and said " ok only la.." he's notin my grp!!!! but he's in my other friend's grp!! and they seem pretty close!! haiz... so sad.. but now i know his name.. everytime i see him i just cant help but 'um chio'!!! OMG! and i hope nobody saw it! omg! am i desperate?!

last day of hol

2008-01-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

i have to work doubly hard for my coming sem... i think i really didnt work hard enough for the 1st... whch is probably why my friend can got 2 HDs...while i only had 1... im glad for him though! but ya i want to manage my time wisely and...do better so i can compensate the marks i lost for my damn acct... grr!

my friend said sth which i kind of agree... no offence to anyone.. cos he said he feels that we can have and in fact, have equal standing with the ntu and nus peeps.. although we lost 1 crucial round but all is not lost.

anxious and a bit worried about my new grp members! i hope they are smart and diligent, most importantly, easy to get along with....

i found these.. laughed my ass off... hahaha.. subtitles provided no worries.

funny!

2008-01-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

funny!!! very funny!

special thanks to mr don ang for his assistance. =)

new yr resolutions :o

2007-12-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

my new yr resolutions:
1. save more $
2. pick up fencing(if i save enough $)

3. get to know more friends......(hopefully, gd looking male friends)

watching many korean shows again lately! hwang jinyi was one... and repeat telecast of stairway to heaven! my mum watches too! the rich guy who acted as hwang jinyi's bf is SO cute! i mean his face looks a bit like a female and i didnt really like it at first and then gradually i find his baby face more and more appealing... LOL! here's 2 pics for reference.

he looks like this in the show

but SADLY, he died in the show! OMG SO SAD! it's like super tragic ok.... more tragic than when lady han died in 'da chang jin'! so i stopped watching the show!

today.. i think it's my rival's b-day... crap... i think he celebrated with her! and i think he bought her present! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOUR-ISH! :( and i realised sth... she is not just 3 yrs but 4 yrs older than him!!!!! OMG. THAT MEANS SHE IS 8 YRS OLDER THAN ME! OMG! WICKED OLD WITCH SNATCH MY GUY! 4 yrs is too much for the girl lah... i mean... if he marries her at 28(still i think it's quite young for a guy.) she is 32! I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND HOW DOES THIS WORK! GRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rejected

2007-12-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

haiz... feel so ARGH...! more angry than sad... i so disike her ok... i mean.. i even dislike gals who look like her when im shopping! i sound like a total bitch but ya i really hate her! she'snot uglu. but she aint that pretty either! i can easily point out to any of my friends and they are prettier than her!!!

i think i do not like her aint just because she is the gf of my current crush(lol) but also because she is an over-achiever..

i hate it when my rival is more capable than me... when i look at her pics up-close i think she looks old... in fact she is older than him! OMG. I CAN NEVER GO OUT WITH SOMEONE YOUNGER THAN ME. the only upper hand i have is that my teeth are straighter than hers. omg. i must use his DNA to clone someone out so that i can have the clone all by myself!

i miss kendrick lee!

2007-12-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

i cant believe kendrick lee has a gf... in fact... im still very upset about it. i havent accepted the fact btw.. how can he have a gf?! he's only 23! and im 19! maybe not that case soon... but still! I SHLD BE HIS GF! even if im not i dont want him to be taken by others!

then i chanced upon some article it says he's spore's most eligible bachelor newest member.. so im confused. is he still with his gf or not?!?!

i still miss kendrick lee!! HE IS MY HERO!!!!

sunway lagoon

2007-12-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

will be going for a short getaway for 3 days... malaysia.. 'TRULY ASIA'... haiz... seems like all my friends had or went for xmas dinner!!! i've nv had one... in fact.. if i organize one.. i cant finish washing all the plates! vernetta lopez said we can try having BYOP party... (Bring Your Own Plates).. maybe i could be the 1st. LOL. ya then nobody will come...

heard kendrick lee's msg on supporting spore as venue for youth olympics 2010 was on 98.7 ytd! i really miss watching kendrick lee's matches!!! 100% TRUE BRED SINGAPOREAN, PURE LION BLOOD!!!(i was tempted to say no preservatives added..lol..) not only his playing rox! it seems like he's not easily injured(susilo always injured.. also duno why) and he doesnt wear those whatever thingy people wear on their knees.. and he looks pretty damn good on court! and my friend said he looks just as good in person! and i tink it's very important for atheletes to look good.. especially when u r in spore..gotta be significant somehow..(oops..) my friend also said he's very shy... hehehehehehe... omg so cute!!! and when she asked for his shirt he said it was too sweaty and will give her a clean one the next day.. and he really did!!!! and my friend said it carries the smell of his cologne!! argh!!! i so wana meet him!

i tried doing drop shots like his yesterday but i couldnt! but yihui can! and her smashes are really good! man i should play more with her! when i found out he has a gf i was really devastated... still am btw.. but now that im not THAT sad, im getting angry! im angry he has a gf and im angry that his gf is not me.

gathering? siao ah.

2007-12-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

my jc class called for a gathering. and if you have guessed that im not going, you are absolutely right! why would i want to go for a stupid gathering with people that i really hate when im still in the right frame of mind? and best is must pay $20... why would i want to pay $20 to you all(so called in charge, who the hell appoint one anw?) and then eat with u idiots? siao or what?

i thought my nightmare is over... I WAS WRONG! i cant believe im still haunted by my jc class people... i mean I AM SO OVER IT OK! stop bothering me and i never ever want to see or have anything to do with you all anymore!(except costa.. my best classdy(classmate+buddy)!

star awards?!

2007-12-16T23:29:00.001+08:00

yay! so happy joanne peh didnt get any award. haha. i really find her irritating because she's very kou shi xin fei. anw! rui en and elvin ng got top 10 so YAY! hehehe...

why darren lim got supporting actor?! actually i think it shld be huang jiong yao cos he has worked for so long and his acting is good. that darren lim didnt even bother to come for the event. and christopher lee is very inconsiderate k. he wasted so much time playing and fooling around until the last few guys who came up onto stage had no time for their acceptance speeches. and some extras like dasmond koh got it too... so dumb... i dont even see him on tv that often!

expected that not all 7 princesses will get it but am surprised that 4 of them actually didnt get. anw i think the best dress female is dong suhua. that newspresenter... i really like her dress!

k.. im shocked that jeanette aw didnt make it but am even more shocked that she fled after the star awards to escape the post award party....i mean... seriously must escape meh? still got the other 3 princesses to accompany what..

totally am entertained by show luo ok!! esp the 'thank you office people'... WA HAHAHAHAHA!

AM STILL HEAD OVER HEELS WITH KENDRICK LEE!! im dying to meet him!

kendrick lee marry me!

2007-12-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

omg im totally smitten with kendrick lee now. he simply swept me off my feet k. and i came across someone's blog, it's called the cookiecutter and her blog is
http://thecookiecutter.livejournal.com/3486.html?view=3742#t3742

here was what she wrote:(i did not copy all for fear of being sued)

That's it, when he played like some world champion today against BOONSAK (WORLD NUMBER 7 WORLD NUMBER 7 I CAN NOT EMPHASIZE MORE ON THE FACT THAT KENDRICK LEE IS WORLD NUMBER 24) MY HEART TOTALLY RIPPED OUT OF ITS POSITION AND GOT SNATCHED AWAY BY HIM. OMG, YOU KNOW HE SERIOUSLY WAS DAMN GOOD TODAY??? He played SO DAMNIT WELL. SO, DAMN, WELL. REALLY, all his net shots were like powerful and his smashes and his taps..... OKAY, DO YOU KNOW WHAT PWNED IS?!?!?!?! THAT'S it. KENDRICK LEE IS SO FRIGGING COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the reason why i borrowed her entry was because i totally agree with her every single sentence! i think she is a shuttler herself cos she seems to know stuff about bad, and she likes peter gade. someone whom kendrick idolises btw... hehe i do know a bit about my sports idol k...

sadly! im no longer kendrick lee's no. 1 fan!!! SOME1 LOVES HIM MORE THAN ME! argh!!! ANW! really hope that i can catch him soon! and in action too!

KENDRICK LEE! SARANG HAEYO!

KENDRICK LEE ROX!

2007-12-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

SINGAPORE'S SHUTTLER KENDRICK LEE ROX! he beat thai's boonsak ponsana today at the SEA games semis! the match was absolutlely amazing that it made me sit up at the edge of my chair! kendrick lee fought really well, absolutely in control of the game and YAY we won! KENDRICK LEE ALL THE WAY!! if he goes for next year's aviva open then i MUST volunteer!!! hope i'll be having my break during that period!!!! GO KENDRICK! ALL THE BEST FOR THE FINALS!

SEA games!

2007-12-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

yay!

kenderick lee-his performance aint bad at all!! WOW i would say. saw ronald susilo and the coach, on tv. not in person.

tao li- wa she rox la k. she won not by a margin but by a leap man...

BRYAN TAY! he is the king man. won many golds and also! during the relay when the 2nd breaststroke swimmer in the team slowed down we ranked 6th, bryan tay(last freestyle swimmer for the relay) was so good that he swam like as fast as a lightning and rescued spore by coming into 3rd! UNBELIEVABLE!

does anyone know where can we buy the team spore jacket? looks really cool!

stupid ass

2007-12-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

ytd went to portal to check me results. then came this stupid ass who asked how i fared. i obviously didnt say but she asked if i passed more than 2 mods, i said yes, and she answered, " O great! i was worried that you could not make it"

that was not concern ok. it was like a complete insult. im not even worried that i will fail this sem why would you even have that thought. it means she looks down on me ok. ass.

tour!!

2007-12-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

im dying to go on a tour. i mean a real tour. haha.... was talking to my aunt and she told me she is willing to pay for my 'share' if i do go along with her... a good deal but... when touring... your company plays a determining factor... im not very conventional... but she is... went to europe with my mum and came back with many regrets. dont wana repeat that. wana go with my friends!!! but currently i have insufficient funds... :(

places that i wana visit:
1. USA(never ever been there before!)
i) San Francisco
ii) LA(disneyland and hollywood)
iii) New York
iv) Hawaii

2. Maldives

3. Australia
i) Melbourne
ii) Sydney
iii) Tasmania

4. Europe
i) Spain!
ii) and the other countries that i have visited cos this time round i wont wana follow package tour!

Haiz... all these places will cost me my family's entire fortune. :s

sentosa

2007-11-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa with my cousin(whom i havent seen for i think 15 years. dont even really know how she looks like at first) and her boyfriend, both from Holland. Actually both are 'bananas'... but nice 'bananas'. Actually her bf is mix(half sporean, half dutch) but they reside in Holland of course. they are loaded... but... they are not 'loud' snobs....

the contruction site of IR looks really impressive... i mean the site is SO big and ya im really looking forward to visiting it someday! i mean not play in the casino but i want to visit the universal studio!!

Sentosa is still the same. With new monorail and some new attractions..... but seriously im getting bored with it.... i sat the luge with my cousins(which was my 2nd ride) and i think it was nothing... but the 1st time i sat on it(last year) i wanted to go for the 2nd round! i really think that Sentosa is an overrated place in terms of prices. merlion:boring. carlsber: boring. and the flying trapeze? i wanted to try it until i arrived at the spot. it was monkeys/kids' stuff... very 'ma lu' cos it was like some circus' trick... and it's $9 for 1 stupid swing!!!

We went to vivo for lunch via the monorail... my dad... being a typical sporean... snatched a seat with a boy... BOY! omg... so 'sia suay'... anw... crystal jade IS excellent. EXCELLENT. impress with how they are able to maintain the quality of their food in all branches. really good food. and my cousin's bf lied that he went to toilet to foot the bill!!! how smart!!??! cos he knew that when the bill comes they'll end up 'snatching'...

anw i conclude that if u had been to sentosa. your next trip should be 5 years later.

2007-11-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

my xmas wish is that 'u' will vanish from this world...but losers seldom die young. 'u' made me feel so disgusted. i wana curse 'u' for as long as i live and may 'u' be plagued with retributions, one after another. the only way that can extinguish this hatred is when 'u' are dead. i hope some1 crushes ur balls intentionally or by accident. may 'u' seriously will burn in hell 'u' freaking bastard with no balls.

$$$

2007-11-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

haiz... when i dont work... my morale is very low. partly due to 0 income and slacking makes me feel useless. maybe this is my retribution cos my ex boss asked me to go back i didnt(lazy) and my china gal's mum wanted me to continue next yr i declined. DOES KARMA REALLY EXIST??!

no $$ leaves me feeling frustrated and irritable. act smart went for an $ haircut that 'ate up' 65% of my monthly income. then went to try marche(nv been there b4) and burnt a HUGE hole in my pocket. i mean the ambience was really good and etc... but i reli think it is ex, but when i come back with a bag of clothes i actually feel great! which led me to realise that im some1 who is willing to splurge on clothes but not on meals. i hope im not sick......

i used to save at least 50% of my monthly income, but now it is not even the end of nov and i have spent all of my income. so i calculated and was trying to figure out what the hell happened. i found out that i spent more than what i thought i had spend on food(lunch) and transport!!! i cannot go without food, neither can i crawl to my destination. CRAP!

and i still fork out the coming malaysia trip $$ by myself K! i cant even 'save' cos i have no income... how to 'save'?!?! ta m* de.... feel like the slave of $$$.

how i wish my parents still give me pocket $$$................................

haiz.. no $ for hol

2007-11-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

haiz... nobody wants tuition during holidays... foreign students all went back to their homeland.. haiz... so sad.... no work means no $... goin to my dad's office tmr... help to write xmas cards.... sian....!

whitley guardian go to hell

2007-11-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

i hate the whitley guardian. if not because of the possibly potential 'lobang' i would not have swallowed my pride and smile at her.
money. i must think of the money..!

s05-->crap

2007-11-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

realised that i dont really dislike the people whom i used to dislike in sec sch(except jonathan yu, i still secretly curse him, and am still cursing.) but up till now i still dislike or rather, detest the people whom i dislike in my jc class. esp the guys(except costa. he's my greatest classmate whom i stil keep in touch with!) omg they are so............................... how sad. i mean i really don't like them at all and if i happen to see them someday i'll 'diao' them. not afraid to say their names.

P.S: i do not dislike Costa and AMIGAS. they are my friends.

detest: the guys- jerel( who workED with my friend, cs, at NB)

- 3 musketeers(wilson, larry, kenneth)

- kristy company(suling they all.... aka.... the hopelessly cmi slackers club)

i really hate these 4 guys because i remembered vividly that a teacher called out my name and said sth and they looked at each other(kinda 'huh' look) and 'am chio' behind my back.... i think they completely have no self respect and respect for others. actually wilson and larry was 'led astray' by kenneth. b4 he joined s05 in 2006 i was friends with larry then a lot of things happened and we were no longer talking. we were no longer friends when kenneth came to 'spice' things up. he also taught larry and wilson how to look, talk and act cool(their dress sense...all 3 of them will fold up their pants like ACSI guys during the same time)

not to forget. these 4 assholes are petty guys (dont think we call guys as guys if they are so petty) cos they cannot take jokes. there's this dominating clique(whom i initially thought tey were close with the 3 musketeers but they were backstabbing one another like mad... interesting s05 politics...) who always tease and joke around but well they not only stepped on their toes.. they stepped on mine too. anw jerel irritates the hell out of me with his ever tone deaf singing.

kristy and company is the probably the worse bunch of people ive met in my life. they are people who have huge attitude and character problems. they LOVe to badmouth every and anything they possibly can. (such as the guest of the assembly.. they will make fun of her attire and say possibly the nastiest things anyone can say) they have a problem with everyone including badmouthing their own 'clubmembers'.(1 of them always pon sch so they badmouth her, then tmr they will badmouth others and laugh as if they love one another to bits. OMG! IM DISUGUSTED!) they are those sort of people who never fail to find problem with others and blame everyone else except themselves. i rememebered they scolded my bio teacher behind his back(they called him a bastard. but look who are the REAL basts) cos he made them sit for re test as they failed. if u dont fail, then he wldnt have gotten u idiots to sit for re test right?! he stil gota mark ur papers again! he doesnt have to do all these know! then the next day they'll laugh and joke with my teacher. not only with my bio teacher... my chem teacher as well!wa they rox la. if there is a best hypocritical grp award.. they really deserve it. i cannot tell u how good their acting is. seriously they should go audition for the next star search. they dont need acting classes at all. IT IS PROBABLY THEIR ONE AND ONLY TALENT.

dislikes: dominating clique(but they have stepped on my toes but because it's unintentional so....i shouldnt bitch about them.)

oic

2007-11-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

once heard people who said this in chinese,"if you can't study is ok, as long as your dad is rich." looked at a friend, found out it sounds rather right. not saying that it's exactly right.

not that im badmouthing anyone who went overseas for an education. someone i knew who went overseas to study is doing very well... experiencing and making the best out of everything and is having the time of his life, flying to different countries etc.. if i was given the same opportunity i believe i can do as well. or even better.

unfortunately i aint that rich and i dont have a mum or dad who can put everything aside here and leave to accompany me overseas. nor am i someone who can give up my friends and all the commitments i have here. this friend will be graduating end of next year. when do i grad? if everything goes well, in 2010. by then i would have been 21, meaning i have about 9 years before i reach that big 30.

my dad also told me that no matter how hardworking or capable you are, if nobody is willing to give you THAT chance you will never succeed. however if people open up their doors to you, no matter how slow or weak you are, you will find yourself THAT breakout(with real sweat and hard work of course).

haiz

2007-11-09T20:03:00.001+08:00

haiz... been flipping papers and websites. cant seem to find any job that is reli temp. except promoters... but i dun reli wana b a promoter. been a surveyor and concluded that im not cut out for jobs tat require me to stand on my feet for the whole day. moreover it was recommended by an agency. imgaine how miserable my pay will be after they 'eat up' their comission? this agency is "VERY EFFICIENT". i called them last yr ard dec. they only called me up this yr nov. efficient sia...

ex boss told me he's now recruiting tele.. so tink i'll go back and work lo. not exactly excited cos i wanted to find a job that i hadnt tried before to gain experience. hope my schmate gets the job and can accompany me to work soon if not, i'll b bored to tears.

my china gal failed her eng sia... wa lau.. altho expected la but still... but what im thankful is that she's not the worse. haha. ive looked at the paper and i dont think that it is exactly easy for the standard of P4. anw cant blame the setter. however, to my huge surprise she did way better than i tot she would have done for her sci paper. mid yr she had like 19/100. now she scored 61/100. see must thank who? im the hero behind this success k. i bet her mum will use her eng grades to 'negate' my deserved credits. wadever jus pay me accordingly.

happy deepavali

2007-11-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

happy deepavali to all! went to eat steamboat wit family. not bad q nice.. mainly because of the soup base i tink.

feel 'sour' to noe the winners for subaru challenge won the cars. i neo they worked reli hard for it cos they cldnt slp for days! but i wished it wasnt held in public.. so i cld join... even if i lost.. i wldnt have 'lost face'.

watched 'shall we dance'. 1st half was.....................but the 2nd half took a turn for the better. no top model. crap. wad's wit channel 5?!

post-exam misery

2007-11-07T21:32:00.001+08:00

post exam misery: my dad is jealous jealous that im kinda idling ard so he nagged me to do things like clearing stuff or helping out in some hsework. and when i wana sleep he'll say,"dont keep sleeping la! go and clear ur table..." :

i jus cleaned the floor btw.. using magiclean. n i've blisters on my hand. tmr i gota clear my room, then clear my notes... all these clearing will jus make the floor dirty again. wasted my efforts *tsk

yay!

2007-11-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

yay!!!

my exams are finally over!!! altho i tink i'll not make it for acct... o well... wad's done is done. reli hope my proj can help me pass this course.

wana thank team Q except the 'killer'. we got quite a few HDs and DIs for proj... team Q is the best team i can ever ask for... reli hope my team the next sem is jus as gd or similar la.. to my team this sem...

so many things that i wana do! jus duno where to start!

exams!

2007-10-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

omg i hate exams. i reli am afraid of failing acct k. if i fail 1 mod i got repeat. wad kind of stupid logic is tat??! i din choose to study acct la. damn crap. jus cant make sense out of anything i studied for aCCT! i read budgeting 3 times n i stil cant manage the MCQ. MCQ! crap. ARGH!

o man.. i reli dislike kate tsui. i dun even understand how come she won ms hk?! wd said she looks like boy lol. ok my pt is tat she seems to get all the good looking guys in tvb shows... NO JUSTICE AT ALL! urgh!

wish tat my exams can be over soon. feel so 'trap'!!!!

MUTTONS-U COMPLAIN!

2007-10-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

omg the best has happened for me this yr. i managed to call into 98.7 Muttons! i love them and their prog so much! they are the reason why i switched back to 98.7(only night time). they rox! i noe it's only a radio prog but it has seen me through many lonesome nights... hahaha...

btw i called into this segment call 'u complain!'. so basically i jus called in and said abt tis 'fren' in my prev entry, in summary, to them. they are reli cool and funny!! i reli like them! unlike jamie yeo(i called in 3 yrs ago for some reason which i cant rmb), she is so...........*faintz. no empathy too! better that she left 98.7. i tink 98.7 is now back with stronger crew like rozz, soo and young. but i seldom listen to them :p

MUTTONS FOREVER! 98.7 11pm-2am. MUTTONS U MAKE MY DAY! THANK U! =)

irritated

2007-10-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

gettin more n more irritated by tis fren of mine.. i noe she's not schemin nor is she a bitch.. but she keeps showing off to me.. whether or not it is intentional i got offended...

she told me tat her grp member said tat she condemned her cos she got HD for some test of hers and said to me tat her 'grp member' is childish.. bla bla bla but during the conversation she jus cld not stop emphasizing her HD. i got reli pissed cos i noe she wans me to noe her grade cos i did not ask her neither do i wan her to noe mine(she noes tat).

she also is a huge hypocrite i jus cld not tell u how 'ugly' i felt for her... she can be reli gd frens wit her members, even sit wit them during lect and called my fren n i to sit wit her where her members sat... it seems like they reli got along so well. andthen she can come n say lotsa bad stuff abt dem to my fren n i. den she can change her 'face' once more n say stuff like 'my grp is very united right?' or 'i hope next sem i stil get to b in d same grp as dem' bla bla... den ltr she can again say stuff like ' so n so scolded me n made me cry cos he refused to do this bla bla'... den ltr she are frens wit dem once again...

she also has huge prob wit ppl who look good or dress well. she was bitching so much abt tis grp of gals who r known as the 'pretty' gals in the lect grp and esp said lotsa bad stuff abt tis malay gal.. the next thing i knew was she started complimenting her n said she's frenly! den i realised she made frens wit her.. even so! she stil badmouthed her! omg. wad kinda person is she!? some ass with split personality?!

flea market tmr!

2007-10-12T22:50:00.001+08:00

HEY EVERY1! PLS COME DOWN TO MY FREN'S FLEA MARKET BEHIND CINE TMR! we sell accessories at VERY gd prices and quality!! i'll b selling there for a while too! pls come and support!!!!

fortunately i passed a test i tot i wld have failed. but im sad cos a fren of mine got HD... hmm.. it kinda motivated me to do even better den her cos i reli wana win her jus once. it upsets me when she always show off that she gets HD for like many stuff..

time reli flies. i have abt 2 more weeks left for my 1st paper... and im not even halfway tru... OMG! :S

ppl and ppl and more ppl

2007-10-08T18:57:00.000+08:00

o man i reli cant stand accounting... i have been escaping this mod for like months and now it's time to pay back... principle + INTERESTS! OMG... tried reading the notes n tb din noe understand a shit... then came a hero who rescued me! me tecky!!! hahahahaha.... tho i roughly noe the backbone only... but still wana thank tecky... who've always believe in me(HAHA JK LA..copy joey fm 'friends') he taught me how to do cash flow and some budgeting stuff... n i alwso found out tat my maximum concentration span is 2hrs. anything after... too difficult to be 'absorbed' cos my brain is too 'saturated'. haha...

as the proj is ending... i feel that ppl fm my grp is starting to show some of their true colours... jus feel very................ i mean they are nice as frens but as workers... duno wad to say.. killer is still the same old him... jus sit down there n do nth... reli do nth... onlynoe how to use ur mouth n talk cock. so old aldy stil need ppl to feed u meh?!?! i mean i jus dun understand why cant he take his own initiative to do sth for the grp. everytime i was the one who prepares the file and cover sheet and all these menial stuff... why cant he offer to do tat when he doesn have anything to do at all!!!! if we were to dedicate sth for him to do.. HE IS BOUND TO SCREW. and when we correct him he refused to edit! so we ended up doing everything for him fm the start.... jus like doing double work. so this time, we gave him a 'no needa use ur brain' task to do--find articles for our proj. he not only did not find(nv receive a shit email fm him means he din bother to find), when my grp mate passed him 2 articles to send to us, he 'FORGOT' to send. i wana scold him &#$%^@! i hate him even more when we did well cos all of us will get the same gd grades... which is SO UNFAIR when he did nth! argh!!!

hanging out with a grp of quite nice frens... they help me a lot and are not selfish. but 1 of them has a problem.. not huge but it irks me... well when she does well, she tends to 'show off' to me and ask me how well i did... it sometimes motivates me cos i wana do as well or even better than her.. but im not very comfortable with tat cos i dun usually like to disclose my grades... i tink she doesnt noe tat she kinda is showing off... but i tink when she doesnt do as well she jus kept quiet... jus like how she din tel me she din do well for her presentation... she can b quite a double headed snake but it's not to my disadvantage cos i din do bitchings with her.. it kinda backfired for her cos her grp members r also double headed snakes and they claimed to be neutral and pointed their fingers towards her when actually all of them reli bitched abt tis gal... sometimes.. she likes to talk a lot abt her bf... i mean A LOT... and i get kinda bored... cos im not into such topics... she also has problem wit gals who dress well and i duno why... she doesnt dare to criticise me... btu sometimes she will ask me why am i dressed up so formal today... tat means i looked good tat day! yay! haha... o! and she also loves to show off to me tat her mum encourages and OFFERS to pay for her facial packages...so she always go for facials... duno how true is tat but it made me reli envious.. cos i oso wana sign up for such courses... dun have a problem wit her.. i dun dislike her.. but sometimes.. these nitty gritty stuff makes me go :

i have 4 HUGE topics for FSI. 6 topics for acct. 10 topics for workplace mod and 7 topics for services. i have less than 1 month to finish all these and i havent started! still stuck with the damn proj!!! i wana punch myself!

disappointed

2007-10-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

my grp received the grades for 1 course proj... we merely passed. reli disappointed cos we mugged hard for that.. then we din reli work for our presentation we got HD. sadly the presentation is only 10%. while the one we jus got PA is 25%.

which is why i tink workplace skills course is the stupidest module cos the notes r crap, the exams are dumb and the lecturers are LOSERS! damn i jus wana get this mod over and done with.

den i received email fm this gal in the grp. she said in the email that it is a wake up call to us. u mean WAKE UP CALL FOR U?!?! I noe she is not faulting me but some other ppl...but by writing these kinda shit u jus demoralise ppl... she's like some tardy queen who can dun even turn up for a mere 1 hr meeting.

pissed.

proj again!!!

2007-10-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

OMG. jus handed up proj ytd and starting on another again... i thought we had handed up countless of proj and now....argh! the proj are never ending and im so stressed!!! i havent started studying for my final year and im panicking.... esp accounting!!! any1 knows accounting pls teach me.... lol...

yh passed her driving test!!!! YAY!! reli happy for her man!!! yay!!! it was reli funny when she managed to successfully trick lap and her sis. hahahahaha.... it was reli funny cos she reli can sian! if it was me i wld have burst out into laguhter...congratulations again!! and thx for ur treat! hehe!

into anime!

2007-10-01T00:17:00.001+08:00

used to laugh at my bro when he watches jap animes... but now im doin the same! inuyasha is nice too... rmb i played that soundtrack back in PJCSB..

now im actually watching sailormoon!!! OMG! haha... sth i used to like in pri sch... but obviously i dun collect the stickers anymore at this stage... haha... jus watch the show.. very nice!!! recommended by joyce initially... so i went to watch 1 episode and found it very cute!! usagi is so stupid! MAMO CHAN IS HOT!!(even tho it's jus a cartoon!!)

ok im beginning to hate my grp membera aldy... not just the 'killer'.. reason is because things are always not clarified... when they do their work last min they vent their frustrastions on me... wad the shit... i aldy emailed them my stuff the beginning of this week.. tmr is the deadline today then i received feedback bla bla bla... and some1's nick is actually wad zero QC.... i duno if she was referring to me but anyhow.. who told u to edit so last min? anw sending to her for editions aint my idea. i felt that i did too much proj that ive neglected my own revisions... next mth is my final exams and i havent even started...!!! ARGH!

right... i better stop watching animes and get back to books... SOS!

yh is taking her driving test soon... wishing her the best! :)

miss the car...

2007-09-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

dad sent car for servicing so they lent him a rented one instead. so dad allowed me to drive in it for couple of days... pretty cool... but scary at same time.

have u ever had the feeling of being so close to having an accident that your heart pumps so hard that it took few min to recover?? well i had.. while coming out of a parallel parking lot. that car just came out of nowhere!

funny hwo my dad's words change as his car was at service. he kept asking me if i wana drive, with a smile. always let me drive... then after he got his car back... he asked me not to drive so often... cos im still a new driver and if i were to meet with any accident(touch wood!) within this period of probation then my license will be revoked... so he was like saying drive all u want after 1 year and bla bla bla.. but u and i noe the reason behind it... lol....

i wana watch america's got talent tmr! stupid station change the prog as and when they like...

bad service attitude

2007-09-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

my 2nd time this year that i encountered a bad service. 1st it was at bukit panjang plaza this apparrel shop. this old virgin who kept following me and nagging as i tried to search for what i want. before i could acknowledge her as i step out of the shop, she rolled her eyes and turned away rudely. MAY HER SHOP AND GOODS CATCH FIRE!

went to JE NBL today for proj meeting. passed by this beauty salon. endorsed by ada choi. think ya know which salon is it. again, they are having their roadshow. promotions and bla bla... so 2 of them approached me like some desperately passionate promoters. they blabber like machine guns even before i can stop to reject them, then i smiled and said i don't want. so 1 of them just rolled her eyes and walked away very rudely, the other was still politely smiling at me.

services industry is one of the 4 courses that i am doing this sem. so what i learnt about the customers' behaviors towards bad attitude is
1. take action(lodge complain to company)
2. defect and stop using their products or services
3. do nothing but reputation is diminished
4. boycott them (e.g word of mouth)

what i would like to say is that this beauty salon has bad servicers. i tried their services before. my friend and i knew that we were going to use their spa. so before reaching we asked if there is a need to bring swimming costumes of our own. the fella said they provide everything needed and guess what?! when we went there they told us towels and bathrobes are not allowed into the jaccuzi. so what did they do? nothing. they did not even think of some other alternatives and said that all other customers also went in without their clothes on. BUT WE ARE NOT THE OTHER CUSTOMERS! so ended up we were separated. but to be honest the treatment was good. u will feel very pampered after that. so i chose used option 2 back then. this branch was at orchard.

TODAY, this bitch OMG. she was like happily promoting all the shit and after i said no and even before i could thank her she rolled her eye at me and walked away. I WANA SLAP HER SO HARD THAT SHE CRIES. MAY SHE GET FIRED FROM HER BOSS AND PUNCHED BY SOME PASSER-BY! so what im trying to say is do not treat people nice and polite. it doesnt pay. even at times towards friends and family, we should not be TOO considerate and nice because they may just walk all over you, i realised...

slack.er

2007-09-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

it just feels so good to slack the whole day. all i did was eat and sleep. it seemed like i havent had a break for several months when it has only been 2 months... there's maid in manhattan at 1030 on channel 5.. still rmb i watched it last year b4 prelims or As.. quite nice! that rich guy plays voldemort btw.. LOL.

i wana watch so many movies! i wana watch chuck and larry! no reservations! etc....my mum watched 881 and she said it was like the worse movie of the year... opposite of what many said... LOL...

anyone has tips for my P4 china girl?? Her oral is like next week... and im fearing for her!!! her mum is stressing me!! even asked me to push her.. OMG!

:)

2007-09-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

finally i get some rest... no sch on mon-wed... but wed gota go back for grp meeting... survived this dreadful week of muggings and rehearsals(for roleplay)...and just as when i thought that it's the end, i realised that we are left with 2 weeks to complete our fin. proj!!!! and we barely started!

today's roleplay went rather well, to my amaze. probably cos we spent like 3+hrs practising over n over again...then went on to rehearse on the actual stage with mic..

at first b4 we even started, we tried to open the ppt slides but it cldnt open, then the proj said that our time has started in a mean way and i was quite pissed.. but i didnt express it of course. then aft we presented the prof would comment and said our play was logical and clear(cos we had ppt slides as a guide), it was well done n congrats... i reli hope he meant what he said and gave us really good marks...

then my fren came n pour her 'emotions' out to me during break. her grp was the first to perform. i din reli catch it cos... tink i wasnt reli paying attention and it was quite boring...i cldnt hear them, it was so muffled and they din use the mic, the narrator was really inconspicuous and soft... but i obviously din bother or say anything as i was very nervous at that time. anyway it's not my grp.

then the prof didn't like their play. he said a lot fo stuff which i didn't hear but i heard he said they exceeded the time limit(10min) and he was not please. then during the break my friend came and said a lot of stuff... she kinda bitched to me about unfairness like their group had a narrator but he complemented another group who has narrator and not them. then i told her probably because their narrator(also my friend but not hers) is more outspoken. she said they intentionally 'hide' the narrator....my silent reaction was like... "who ask u?"

then ltr she further complained and tried to blame someone from their group. she said sth like it was this girl's fault because her attire wasnt formal enough, which led to why the proj said their play werent formal enough. i didnt say anything to her i just kept quiet. but in my opinion, i felt that their lines were full of jokes and nonsensical dialogues which was probably why the prof cldnt catch their main point. why would a prof penalise the whole group for small issues such as the girl's outfit?

then ltr she bitched so much that i felt that she found fault with people all around her except herself. noe she wasnt very happy that we were better then her grp? she said sth like.. the grp b4 ours managed to 'fake' the HK accent well... if u read in between her lines she meant that my group didn't do it as well as the other. i was kinda offended... cos i didn't say anything about the prof's comments nor did i show off anything... then she jus tried to 'dim' us to make herself feel better... i mean i didnt say anything.. i understand she's pissed because her group started really early(maybe it's the reason why they had enough time to add much lame gimmicks) and they put in a lot of effort. at first i felt very guilty and sorry for her.. but aft tat................ blaming everyone around you and getting unhappy with my group just made ppl think that maybe you really don't deserve it.

OFFENDED, VERY

2007-09-13T18:16:00.001+08:00

today was my test.. at first i thought i was pretty prepared until i did the MCQs and i realised i cldn't understand what the question wants. For e.g the compound interest Q, it's not that i don't know how to do, i just didn't understand what the Q is asking for! Then 2 short ans Q each 5 marks. Guess what, they want us to write 200-250 words PER Q! SIAO! we only had 1 hr! OMG! i was like ':S'. I really hoped i can clear the test...i don't wana b despised.. :(

then after that was grp meeting for tmr's roleplay. So we rehearsed bla bla. At first b4 rehearsal I suggested using the actual stage for practice but they felt that there's no need to. Then halfway through rehearsing they realised it was diff to visualise, then SV refused to rehearse on the actual stage.. then he said can visualise.. then tmr morning b4 start of the roleplay we see the stage and discuss... WHAT TALKING U?! tmr is the actual thing tmr then u see and discuss? since we are already in school why not just go and use the stage?! i don't understand what is wrong with him?? then we continued talking then some1 asked about where should 'killer' place his phone bla bla. then they continued rattling, about here and there but nobod ans the Q as to where he shld be sitting. This is not a nitty gritty problem because if his sitting position is not fixed tmr we will be confused and don;t know where who and where to pass the mike. Then even b4 i flare up, SV got so worked up that he was literally raising his voice at me! and said what why shld i worry about small problems like that... U DIDN'T MAKE URSELF CLEAR AND U DIDN'T ANS PPL'S Q U ENDED UP RAISING UR VOICE?! then i raised my voice back at him and said WHY CANT U TEL PPL NICELY?? even if it is a small prob or u tink that he doesnt need a table u cannot tell ppl nicely issit? WHY MUST U GET SO WORKED UP??!

my members thought we were quarrelling.. ya kind of la.. wa i tell u i was really very very angry ok.. i felt so disrespected and insulted... furthermore, i still rmb he mocked at me for being slow because i was still at chapter A he was already at chapter D. stil rmb it was lunch time b4 grp meeting and he made that super direct remark in front of every1 else...i was very offended... would u like ppl to mock at u for being slow directly in ur face. AND IT WAS NOT A JOKE. it was an offensive remark.
MOOD: OFFENDED

then the wk b4 last we handed up the proj, he and another member edited the stuff without telling me AT ALL. until i received the file and was about to print it then i realised that THEY DELETED MY STUFF. so in ur eyes ppl's work are nitty gritty and no impt but yours are gold shit la?!
MOOD: VERY OFFENDED

ten today after the argument...
MOOD: EXTREMELY OFFENDED. WANA SKIN HIM ALIVE! ALIVE!!

besides noe what else he said b4 the test? he said whoever who fails the test shld not be continuing this course at all... i had the urge to slap him so hard that he cries.
today i drove again.. for fun.. drove my dad's rented car cos his original car took for servicing. that explains why he was so nice to let me drive the car... not his what... anw i did parking again... and i took 20 min to reverse into 1 parking lot(cos no poles).. 20 min!!! i jus cannot get it i duno why! goin for probation again on mon...will be doin parking in multi storey car park. hope i will get it by then... argh!

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2007-09-06T18:05:00.000+08:00

i noe it's been like a week since i handed up my grp assignment..but i can't help but feel upset.. why? we had like a final grp meeting the day before we handed up our assignment... so during that meeting all final editions still already been done and finalised right? so some1 is assigned to print out the whole thing for tmr's submission. den im supp to print another set as a back-up...

ok here was what happened.. i was waiting by my com on msn for the person with the final draft to send it to me so i can print the back up. however, to my amaze, the final draft seemed.. rather diff fm wad i saw at the end of the meeting.. it was less jargon(which is gd) but.. many slides were deleted.. at 1st dere were 23.. den at the end of the meeting was 21... den when i received it over msn it was 18... then when i looked at it i realised the slides that were deleted WERE MINE! i came up with those stuff when i could have spent my time studying for the tests... im very upset about it.. and to add on to my misery.. i realised that 2 ppl fm our grp were the culprits for the final edition. they deleted so much stuff without even informing me.. or us... do u have any idea how disrespected i felt?! im not angry because they deleted my slides.. but they did not tell me they deleted(btw deletion is not edition.. delete means ERASE. edition means correction..) so many slides.. im really pissed k... and when i saw the front slides about our qualifications, they wrote wad double degree holders!? SIAO AH. since when is our course a double degree course? u wana let the marker laugh at ur exaggeration issit?

so i told THAT some1. den that some1 argued that se has.. so i said it's u who have it not us. so she said but in the later parts we said we have these and that.. but all those skills are just 'value add'.. not certified.. mus we exaggerate to that extent?! so many excuses.. she jus doesnt wana do any more corrections cos she gota edit the add on... wad is so difficult about editing the double degree part? it's jus 1 phrase right? and who asked u to do the add on and cover letter last min?! when we told u to get it done 2 days b4 we handed up. if u dun spend so much time clubbing u cld have get those things done. besides! the guy and i still gota help her with her add on!! wad more does she wan?! every1 is allocated sth to do... now we did ur part u still find editing the add on a hassle?! im piss k... very piss... i was so piss that i cldnt be bothered anymore that i jus print it without even reading the rest.. anw why shld i waste my time reading the rest when u dun wana do anymore editions?

sometimes.. i felt that what i did is not appreciated.. the 2 of them actually deleted my slides without telling any1 of us.. so u only call upon me to do your manual stuff but when it comes to edition(or rather deletion in their context) im not one of u anymore issit... noe im not gona to anymore things out of my own initiative... im jus gona sit back and WAIT for instructions. den do ur so called editions like wad u all did... and u try doin 'sai kang' urself.. how abt tat?

no reservation

2007-09-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

i wana watch no reservation.. any1 wana watch pls contact me hehe... but i'll only be free after next week.. thx!

stress!

2007-09-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

Finally finished one crappy project last fri and the dreadful test today. Not difficult...it's not easy either... but im worried for my short answer and the application questions... cos i really smoked my way through...so im really scared cos..they are not solid answers ARGH!!!!! i don't want to fail!!! i don't want to repeat this sem again... i saw the graduates for this year wearing the toga and i really want to wear it with my friends at the same time... wa... really hope i can clear this sem... :@

just when i thought i can slack, yet another damn test coming up.. and this time.. is the module that im sooooooooooooooooooo not confident in... WAH!!!!!!!!!! and while i think i can peacefully study for the weakest, i have another stupid group assignment and guess what?! IT IS A ROLEPLAY. not some written work... i dont recall myself ding any lit module how come i have to come up with some roleplay??!! o man... it is SO LAME. and it is due like right after the day of my test. Which means i won't have much time to study for the test cos we gota gather regularly to rehearse.. omg.. and we are supposed to brng props and wear the approriate attire for the roles that we play...OMG.. SO LAME! and what makes it more 'interesting' is, group work means meetings, meetings mean seeing more of the POSER OF MY GRP! omg.. everytime i see him i feel like puking.. everytime i speak to him i feel like drinking baygon! he is jus sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo IRKS!!!! know what he did... he happily KICKED open the door of the LT with a childish disgusting grin feeling so satisfied with his very amusing entertainment... omg.. i hate him... i don't used to hate his 'outside' group work... but now i do... he is so... omg.. trust me.. i'll have more to bitch about after the next group meeting...

argh!

2007-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

cant believe school is getting busier and busier and even busier!! still thinking of joining some clubs in sch to add 'life' to my school life...

a damn project due tomorrow. thinking that it is the end of the assignment for workplace module, i just found out in today's lecture that there is going to be another one!!!!!! i want to burst!!!! im already very very exhausted just after completing one assignment, and i still have another 4 more to go....!!!!!!!!! i havent started studying for my damn test on tues... ARGH!!!! why the hell must there be assignments/proj?!?! why can't we just go to school in peace????!

the 'wei hao' of my lecture is this guy and HE IS IN MY GROUP! why must all 'good' things come together??! he is very much condemned and ya he is not popular AT ALL. even amongst people who don't know him!! he is the bane of my grp! i can't stand him AT ALL. i don't even wana be seen eating the same food as him! with 1 proj already i felt that i could puke on him.... another 4 more to go... just want to get i over and done with so that i can stop entertaining him. so horrible.... and childish... he wants us to acknowledge everything he says but use ur punny brain and think will you?! it is inevitable for people to ignore u every now and then in a grp disccussion and rejection is part and puzzle during meetings.. i get rejected and ignore.. why am i not showing any attitude?! i am also tired. i also want to study for my tests. did i make use of any excuse to not turn up and secretly go back and study myself? did i put my head on the table during discussions?! he is so disgusting.. ARGH!!! and soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo gay!!

as he attended some very important yet unfortunate family event so he was away for a while. by the time he came back we were quite done and he has no brains at all. he gave non constructive criticisms, as if trying to find a bone in an egg, and talk shit so easily as if those shit he said were really important and useful. so shitty that we all stopped entertaining him and decidded to carry on with our editions. guessed he felt that most of the work was not contributed by him, guess wad the F____ he said?!?! i think our proj is not gona get a gd grade. WAT IS WRONG WITH U?!?!? WAD IS YOUR POINT OF SAYING ALL THOSE TODAY WHEN THE PROJ IS TO BE SUBMITTED TMR?!?! i completely suan him in his face-that only a mother can love! U SICK BASTARD WHERE WERE U WHEN WE DID ALL THE 'SAI KANG' NOW U COME AND 'NIAO' ME?! YOUR BRAIN IS SO SMALL THAT U CAN'T THINK! I WISH UR BRAIN WAS AS BIG AS UR ASS!!!!

im bushed. i wana get this thing over and done with. i need sleep..

:S

2007-04-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

yoz.. calling out to peeps who know how to do some blog skin or template stuff(a pro need not be).. need help for my skin.. wd, my bro and i tried pasting all kinds of codes and had used diff types of skins but still failed..

very busy.. gota work..drive..piano..and the stupid SAT which i regretted registering..seems like im busier than when i was in school..

today saw xiaohui at bbdc.. haha.. i didn't see her but she called out to me while i was heading the dustbin.. her driving slot was the 8am's.. one slot before mine.. LOL.. today did right turn.. :S still turn like crap.. either cross the line or drove out of lane.. very diff.. end up clearing only 1 subject today.. then next lesson do u-turn.. i can't even turn right properly still u what turn.. to make things worse.. it was raining.. and to make things 'interesting'.. it rained heavily..then drizzle..then heavy..then drizzle.. for an hour i think.. i was quite fed up because it was my first time on road in rain..and i couldn't steer properly when turning right.. so i caused the car to do a HUGE swerve to left.. and in heavy rain i can't see the chevron markings.. my windows were wet and I can't see the wing mirror properly when changing lanes.. and I didn't brake at the hump so the car 'hopped' so hard that the boot could have opened.. then the inst reviewed and said that right turn is tough so today i've only passed 1 subject :( he said u-turn is also tough so it's also gona take me 1 whole lesson.. My dad just topped up $600 for driving last 2 weeks ago and now i gota ask him to top up again..

then i saw this girl from my college at bbdc.. ignored her flat in the face.. she's a fren of this B*itch clique in my class(previously fm same class but were separated and as a result 3 came to my class). if any1 wants to know the definite meaning of a b*tch and what is a good example of a b*tch.. then you can get to know them.. so in future.. you'll know how to identify real Bs and guard against them.. they're friends of junjie btw.. and they badmouthed him and his other pre-med student friend.. but he and his friend didn't know.. anw i don't label them as B just because i hate them but because they really behave like one.. see..i hate alex who btw poisoned me in her blog last year.. how do i noe.. well she's made many enemies so we form alliance and 1 of them told me (she's the town's TOP NOTCH arrogant shortie who thinks that she's some smartie fm my class..) well i don't think she' a B. she's just trying to be one but not yet a qualified B.. the B girls are full fledge b*tches.. ok.. enough of my poisonings..

last sat band bbq was so fun!! i've really enjoyed it! lap's face was so 'tanned' after bbq-ing for us.. anyone wana get a quick tan? jus stand at a burning bbq pit for 1/2 hr and you'll get a quick even tan.. she's really very nice.. and sweet.. i kept troubling her.. asked for her card..asked to go to her hse to get stuff..asked her to book tennis..borrowed her raquet..drank her drinks in the fridge..messed up her soft toys..messed up her kitchen.. :p

then played tennis with xiaohui and joyce! haven't played for ages! really fun! xiaohui's tennis fetish is contagious.. haha.. then after i reached home then i realised that i didn't eat a lot fo stuff.. i didn't eat the kebabs, otahs, fishballs... haha... and we didn't take group photo!! and simin's fave 13, 14, 15! :( many ppl came.. lance and jinli came! and as usual.. can crapped and laughed.. and crapped and laughed again.. lance became my ex(fake ex) and jinli.. still acting cute but tried harder now.. with her sushi bag! haha!!! and she's still joking about the same joke(my hair) she made when i saw her at outram LOL!! she'll go ' dun act chio la..' *finger curling her hair. well.. these are some peeps you haven't seen for long yet you don't feel any awkwardness and can still chat like old times... some peeps.. i didn't even bother to go up and say hi..some juniors as irritating as ever.. steve.. his height is inversely proportional to his brain.. he came and not want to pay up when he has the money then others followed suit.. he started that 'i got no money' excuse and his frens and the ppl around him also don't wana pay up.. i feel like asking him to leave because the way he put it across to hua mei when he denied the 'bill' was downright cheap.. it's only $6 lo.. complete loser..

initial D hasn't given me my pay.. and my comissions! i counted and i've made 11 appointments but he has never updated me.. i don't believe only 1 came.. i hope my student's mum remembers to pay me the next lesson.. if not i dont know how to open my mouth and ask for it.. quite embarrassing.. im quite worried for that kid though.. his mum thinks that im some miracle maker who can turn her son into a genius.. she said,' ah my friends said that there's a way to lern chi words very quickly.. can u use that method and teach him?' WHAT??! U ASK UR FRIEND TO TEACH LAH! she asked me to spend the whole 1.5 hr to teach eng cos she said that chi they can teach but they aint good at eng.. ah.. now exam coming then realised chi not easy to teach right?! serve you right.. she then asked me to use 1/2 hr to teach her son chi.. u tink 1/2 can work miracles ah?? u say these kinda parents crazy not??? and she kept comparing her son to his elder sis who performs better academically.. just do his best la.. why keep comparing?? im afraid i'll get fired when his mid year results......................this stupid agency.. kept on calling me.. i rejected them duno how many times still kept calling me... when im in need of students why don't call.. i got so fed up that i told them in the face you have called me countless of times..

goin back to my crunchy roll now!